Feeling happy for no reason! :)

Feel the breeze, the way it touches your skin... feeling happy and free!

Ahh, today I feel happy for no reason! I feel like there is so much energy in me and I'm feeling really positive! I love it! You see, I woke up today; I hopped off from my bed and went to the bathroom to fresh up. I then came back to the room and told my brother to fresh up as well. My mum and dad, they both went to the shop to buy grocery. My mum gave me money some money and told me to send my brother to the shop to buy juice for both of us.

When my mum and dad left, I went to my brother's room and told him that he needs to go, he didn't want to go, so I told him that I will go instead of him! He was happy because he is too lazy to go to the shop! I wore my jeans, a tangerine coloured peplum shirt with my hoodie on top of it. I took the money and my purse and off I went to the shop. You see, I don't normally go out of the house, I have really bad anxiety, and so I don't deal very well with a lot of people surrounding me. But today, I gave it a chance and I was happy with it. I went to the shop but I saw that the juice that we love isn't in stock, I was kind of upset because I love drinking cold juice at breakfast time... though I just bought some cookies and four muffins! I love both of them!

I came home; changed into my clothes and told my brother that I'm going to cook paratas for him (it's a type of Asian food, made with flour) I made two for him and two for myself! It was yummy, I also enjoyed my muffin, I only ate one of them. My brother ate one and he told me that he doesn't want to eat others because he doesn't like it. Well, more for me! After eating breakfast he went back to his room to play games. Typical boys. I ate my breakfast, though without any juice. I cleaned up everything in the kitchen and washed all the dirty dishes.

I went on Facebook and saw that the Hazaragi Movie, the first part was posted onto Facebook! I was overjoyed! (If you want to know more, read the post on my Blog http://timetochatnow.blogspot.co.uk/2013/08/howdy-hope-struggle.html )

I watched the first part and found it to be really great! I waited for some more time and then they posted the second part of it as well, now I'm waiting for the third and final part! 

Most of the time, I feel angry and upset for no reason and I curse it, I don't know why it happens... maybe a Human Nature. This time that I'm feeling happy, I really appreciate it! I just wish I could always feel like this.

Till next time. Take Care! Peace x

Eid!

Welcome EID!

Eid is when you forget the negative and focus on positive. Sharing is caring!

Eid al-Fitr is also known as the Feast of Fast-Breaking or the Lesser Feast. It marks the end of Ramadan and the start of a feast that lasts up to three days in most of the countries it is one of Islam’s two major festivals, with Eid al-Adha being the other major festival. Eid al-Fitr celebrates the end of the fasting that occurs during Ramadan.  

Crisp new notes of money are given to others especially young children!

Muslims around the world wait eagerly for this day, it bring s them closer to their family and friends and to those living around them! Well, what I really wait for is the money (Eidi) basically, on Eid people who are older than you are supposed to give you a gift, 99% of the time it's money. Sometimes when they don't give me Eidi, I become really sad as the Eidi is the top highlight on the Eid! I mean, I'm still a teenager and people in my family who are younger than me don’t ask Eidi from me. I am just two or three years older than them!

Most of the time, whenever someone comes to our house on Eid, he/she gives us money probably ranging from £5-£15... It’s not much but I appreciate what I get :D My father last year gave me £50! I know, for some it might be nothing, but to me it was fantastic! My mum only gave me £10 as she doesn't have a job. I gave my brother £5; he's just three years younger than me that's why! I think this Eid, I'm might not get a lot of money...

Women do Henna on their hands on this joyful event! With different designs and patterns to bring out the bright colour of henna.

One of the best things on Eid (for females) is that we get to do henna! Now, some might call it Mehndi as well. Its type of a tradition in many countries, on Eid, many younger girls and female of any age draw different designs and patterns! When I was younger, I didn't know how to do Henna. Although one of my cousins knew, but she would always do her sisters' hands first, I would always get so annoyed because I knew she didn't even want to do Henna on my hands! Most of the time, she would always make excuses about how she can't be bothered to do henna and blah blah blah.

Many can't do the henna themselves, so they go to the market and women do it for them for different amount of money.

Many females sit in different Markets (bazaars) and they open a stall. Many females visit those stalls so that those women could do Henna on their hands. Since its Eid, many of those workers charge extra because they know that people will surely pay! Even if they charge more, it is all worth it because at the end when they finish the design, one could see the exotic patterns! Many people have Books which include Henna designs, from those books people can chose whatever type of design they want. Most of the time, many women do Henna up to their elbows!

The delicious food to share with others!

When it comes to the food, there are always stalls everywhere in markets! It mostly includes Chaat, Samosa, Dahi Baday, Qeema and many other traditional food of that country. They put up those stalls because before the Eid day, at night many people go to shopping malls to shop. That night is called "Chand Raat" if translated in English it means "Moon Night" On that night, many women buy the remaining things that they might want for Eid such as jewellery or shoes etc. 

The sizzling of those traditional foods and recipes!

The sizzling of the food makes the environment even more exciting! When I was back in my country, I went to the shopping malls only once. I was with my mum, though it was a great experience, but I never want to go there. I think it's because there were too many people! All of them are rushing and there is too much noise! I'm the kind of person who hates being squashed between people and I really hate loud places!

Buying different colour of  jewellery to match it with their Clothes!

When it comes to the shopping for Eid, women have to have matching jewellery with their clothes! Many of them chose large earrings and those ones that stand out! There are different varieties of earrings; younger girls tend to go for those little ones which don’t weigh much; though the older women go for the more expensive looking ones and those which can attract more attention! Personally, I really love wearing larger earrings because even if your clothes don’t have much detail but you earrings can win the show!

Mainly young girls buy bangles made out of glass to match it with their chosen outfits!

If you have ever gone shopping for Eid and if you're a female, you would know that your Eid outfit without those glass bangles are incomplete! I mean, the sound of those bangles and the designs on them always makes you buy them no matter what! I always preferred bangles which are made out of glass than the bangles made out of other materials. It's just the sound of it, when you wear them and when you shake your arms, Eid becomes more real. 

Buying clothes and choosing them is really hard as there are a lot to chose from!

Many people now chose ready made clothes, which mean that it is already made and they don't have to bother to give it to the tailor to get it sewed. Personally, I like it when I have given my clothes to the tailor because then I am eagerly waiting for it to arrive and it makes me even more pumped up and freaking excited! This year, I went shopping with my mum and dad and bought myself clothes, though I still have to buy other things and Eid is tomorrow :'( I hate when I'm late at buying things because while I'm here getting stressed others are outside going out with their family and friends!

Anyhow, if you're a Muslim, then Eid Mubarak! And if you're not, then don't worry because your Muslim friends will surely give you treats (well that's what I do anyway) 

Take Care! Peace x

Results Day?

RIP TO ME!!!

Well, first of all I want to make it clear that on the results day I will be the one shitting my pants! I mean come one, think about it. I wait for about an hour outside my school for the results, then I wait in the line praying (as if it helps) that I haven't failed and at last when I get my results, goose bumps starts to appear all over my body. Sweaty hands. Dry throat. Shaking. Hair standing behind my neck! At that moment, when my teacher hands me my results, I just make a poker face -_- because I don't want to show how freaking fearful I'm at that moment.

I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm kind of smart, well that's what I think... but I'm really afraid of my Maths result! I hate MATHS! Even if I tried my hardest, I always fail. The first time when I did my Maths GCSE exam, I got a C. Yes, a freaking majestic C! Many people say "Oh, at least you passed!" And I'm standing there like "C shows that I'm a looser because I neither passed nor failed!" Let me explain what getting a "C" means in GCSE. Basically it means that you have passed the exam with a Lowest Mark... Let's say, you need to get 60 marks to pass the exam, and you got 61 marks! How would you feel?

My situation...though I'm a female.

I have already gotten some of my results because I did early GCSEs such as I have got my Religious, Science and ICT (or IT) and Oh yeah, I have got a C in science. Don't laugh please :'( It's just that I had a second chance to do my Science exam and probably get higher grade. Probably. I didn't do it. I thought about it a lot! Many days, I sat in my room thinking "Should I give it a chance?" "What if I fail?" Many questions came rushing in my mind, at the end I decided I wouldn't take the risk. I didn't do it because I thought I "kind of" passed Science already so why should I waste my energy on it again!? It's not like I'm taking it in College or University.

If I tell people that I'm going to fail, they all laugh saying I'm a show off! I mean, just because I concentrate in my class doesn't make me a freaking SMART ASS! I don't get it, in class, whenever there is a test, I always get the highest, but when it comes to the actual exam, I get really low marks. What I hate the most is when I get two or three marks off from getting a B or an A! It really pisses me off. I mean think about it, you learning so much, and at the end you are actually one mark away from getting an A*. In my Religious GCSE Paper, I was two marks away from getting an A*. Yeah, FML (Fuc* My Life!)

Oh, how much I hate them!

Okay, so you know those people who say "Oh, I haven't learnt anything, I'm going to fail!" Well, FUC* THEM! I can't stress it enough about how much they make me angry! I mean, if you have started revising two months before the Exams and you have been revising since the first day you found out the date, then why be like that? They tell you that they haven't revised, or that they might have written a wrong answer, making you hope that maybe, just maybe this time you might get higher than them. No, they crush your dreams by getting an A* Well, thank you very much!

I'm just not in mood now. All I'm thinking is how I will open my results' envelop and see I have got Es and Fs in mostly all of my subjects. I try to stay positive, but think about it, I would be so ashamed of myself, I will probably dig a big hole right there and then, so I can bury myself alive! Oh no, I think my friends will get higher than me and I know, deep down they'll probably be really happy! I don't know. I think, it's time for me to make a Will and say what to give to my family after I die, which probably includes of £10 from my piggy bank, old clothes and yeah, my phone! Oh well, I think I better start writing it then because I don't want them to fight about it.

Bye for now xx take care. PEACE!

Can't sleep!

Story Of My Life!

I mean, okay I use Facebook, YouTube, Gmail etc at night. I try my best not to use them when I'm going to bed; but no! I have to use the laptop... I usually use Facebook, you know to stalk some of my friends. What? Don't tell me you don't do it! I know you do too ;) For about three days, I have been sick, I still am. I try my best to take the medication and all, but it seems like the odds are against me! Everyone says that when you're ill/sick you're supposed to rest, I think my brain doesn't coordinate with my body because trust me when I tell you, even if I try to get comfy in my bed, I still use my phone to go on different sites.

Humans, why are we so complicated? I mean, I know that if I didn't sleep or didn't take rest, my condition will get worse! But oh no, I got to see the new YouTube video by Smosh! Oh man, how I wish I could take break from using any type of electronics. When it comes to nights... hmm who am I kidding, it's 3:40 am in the morning and I'm freaking writing this Blog. I think, I would rather write for hours and hours than to go to bed on time.

Most people yawn when they see others yawing! Did you?

Another down side is that, since it's my holidays, I get to choose what time I can wake up or to sleep. Usually, I wake up at 4 PM in the afternoon... yeah, I have no life because I don't go out; socialize with other fellow human beings. I just eat my breakfast, roll over onto my bed, and plug in the laptop charger and BAM! I start Googling random things. I plug the charger from the beginning because obviously I'll be too lazy by the time my laptop warns me that only 7% of battery is remaining; though, sometimes when I don't remember plugging it in, and when the laptop shows that only 5% of the battery remaining, I suddenly become a Super Ninja! Trust me when I say this, I don't become just ordinary ninja like others become; I become a Super Saiyan Ninja! I unexpectedly have a flow of energy and in about 2 Seconds the charger is plugged in! 

Here watch an EPIC video!

Well, I leave you at this since I got no energy left in my fragile body. I think I had enough of internet for today, maybe just maybe tomorrow will be different? Nah. 

Take Care xx Sleep tight (if you are going to sleep, if not then... GO WORK!)

It's My Own Opinion!

Give Respect, Get Respect!

What's up? I'm kind of fed up about how people just shove their own opinions and their own so called "Beliefs" down other people's throats. Don't y'all have respect for others? Now, let me make it clear, many religious people (bear in mind I do believe in a religion) they try to make you feel as if you're a sinner and they are all washed with holy milk or something. I do follow a religion, but that doesn't mean I should tell others that they're going to hell because they have different opinions from me or they have different religion.

I have a friend, she once asked me about what I belief in or what not, I told her that yeah I do belief in God, But she told me since I'm a Muslim and not a Christian, I will go to Hell. I have also heard Muslims saying that others will go to hell if they don't become a Muslim. What the... I mean seriously? So, now people will decide who will go to hell/heaven. They will decide who will live happily on this Earth and who will suffer because they Belief in something else.

If you focus on Religion, it teaches you about positive things. Religions doesn't tell you to divide people in certain groups, it tells you to live in harmony and peace with fellow members.

I got no problem about what religion you believe in, whether you're an atheist, gay/lesbian, old, young. I got no problem. I will respect you no matter what. We live in 21st century and I accept everyone. Why should I judge you? Who am I to judge you!? If you're religious you should know that God have told us that we shall not judge others because He is the one who created us and He is the only judge.

These days, the media have a great influence on us. It looks like whatever comes up on the news; people believe it without thinking twice. They think that all the Muslims are terrorists! Hahahaha, it makes me laugh. So, you're telling me that about 1.6 Billion Muslims around the world are terrorists? While there are some extremists, who in the name of Islam brutally slaughter others without contemplating twice! It is such a shame that people judge Muslims only based on those 1% extremists.

Now, I'm not here to give you all a lecture about how some people have peas sized brains! I'm making my point clear by saying that just because one individual from a certain group does something wrong doesn't mean the whole wide group is responsible for it. Does it mean that the Christian man, who burns the Quran is the representative of the whole world wide Christians? No! I'm not going to curse every Christian because of him because he is an individual with his own opinions.

Help others not because they have the same religion or the same race as you. Help them because they're Human Beings like you and everyone else!

I don't know why people make your life miserable because you might be an atheist. I don't blame the atheist for not following a Religion because you know why? Now a day some Religious people interpret the message from God in a way where they think they are superior and who ever don’t listen to them is a culprit and deserves a punishment! I can go on and on and on... but I won't be able to finish it or the truth is that you'll probably get bored!

Quran 25:63:

The worshippers of the All-Merciful are they who tread gently upon the earth, and when the ignorant address them, they reply, "Peace!"

Bible:

 And a servant of the Lord must not quarrel but be gentle to all ... (2 Timothy 2:24).

♥-I Love You All, My Beautiful Fellow Earthlings! ♥ x PEACE

Hate wearing GLASSES!

I think I'm going BLIND!

Well, I think my eye sight was week since I was a child. I remember when I used to go to school, I couldn't see the board! I told my cousin to copy off the work for me as well because I couldn't see. She thought I made those rubbish excuse because I was too lazy to copy off the work, she didn't know that I was freaking going blind! I didn't have glasses till I was probably 16! Can you believe it? All this years, all I saw was blurred images of people and without knowing I need to get glasses!

Now, don't get me wrong. Some people look hot and really sophisticated with glasses, on the other hand, there is me, looking like a Geek or a Nerd! I mean, I know I'm good at studying but wearing this ugly glasses are just making me look like some sort of a Nerd character from the movies where everyone bullies me and calls me ugly! I didn't even know what frame to pick for my glasses. My dad picked it for me and as always I agreed to him. I always do. Well most of the time. So, here I'm wearing my thick glasses trying to type in this early bright morning.

My Glasses Are From Ted Baker

You know, I'm not the type of person who really cares about what they're wearing or what not, but sometimes I do care and when I do, I just want to break them. I can't break them because then I will be blind! I also hate contact lenses. I mean, think about it, what if it falls off and your hands and fingers are too dirty and you pick it up, and place it back in your eyes! EWWW! :S 

On other hand, although I hate wearing glasses, but I can't just can't -not wear them- They are like my eyes now, whenever I go out alone to meet few friends, I have to wear them because then I can't actually see the freaking bus and will miss it! I'm short sighted, which means I can't see things from far away. You know, once I stopped a bus that I didn't wanted to, but since I'm a looser I just hopped onto it because I was really ashamed that the bus has stopped because of me. I know, I'm pathetic! 

Sometimes, my eye balls start to get hurt, I have no idea why... for my eyes checks-up, and I only went twice. I guess that's not enough. The first time, the thickness of my prescribed glasses weren't that much of a deal. Since I went the second time, it got worse. They told me that my eye sight was weaker than before. This meant that I will have thicker lenses. Oh, and my left eye is weaker than my right one. 

At the end, I just hate 'em because I feel more self conscious wearing them. Oh well, everyone has their own opinion. 

Bye! Take Care x

HOWDY! "Hope- A Struggle"

What's up everyone? Well, lately I haven't posted anything on my Blog... the thing is that I was really sick and I still am! It's just one of those things, where you don't want to share your personal life with others, though on the other hand, I want to record my daily feeling or just my daily life. People often record their daily lives by writing a diary or something, but to me, I think that if someone from my family or friends saw it, I'm going to be doomed! It is because it has some of the secrets that I haven't told anybody.

I wish, I would look this cute when I'm freaking SICK!

Anyway, enough of me chatting crap! Lately, I have been feeling really sick. I got flu and cold and all those nasty stuff! YUCK!!! Whenever I catch cold or flu, it stays with me for about a month! Literally, I'm not even joking.  I don't know how I caught it though... My mum said because I ate something. I don't know. The weather has been Sh** lately. I am sitting in my room all day every day. What I love the most about being sick is that my mum pays more attention :D I love it! ♥ Well, it's not like she beats me everyday hahaha, it's just that now she spends more time with me. Oh, my brother and my mother, they're also ill! It seems like the virus has spread in all of us :'(

On the positive note though, there is a Movie coming out that I'm eagerly waiting for! It is based on true event. You can get more information about the event here: http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=9ac_1358285352

Never give up! (Got this from Google)

Many innocent people lost their lives. Those precious lives that has to saved, they are being wasted in many countries. Though, this particular movie is not just about the death of many loved ones, it is about Hope. The title of the movie is "Hope- A Struggle" The Film Promotes Education and Encourages the Youth to Move Forward in life, even if the Last Ray of Hope is Far Off.

I just can’t wait for it to release! Its release date is 7 August 15:00 in UTC+05. I'm really excited! It is because it is based on true events and also it is going to be the first movie that is going to be released in Hazara Community regarding the bomb blast.

Unforgettable day for thousands.  

Get more information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/159872680872523/

Trailer 1: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=172082949617333

Trailer 2: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=198238903668404

-“Our graveyards have no space left as they have been filled up so very frequently by these terrorist attacks that target our community,” said a Hazara Shia student at a protest in the federal capital.

-About 86 people lost their lives and more than 100 injured!

Here you can see pictures of the attack on Alamdar Road (Viewer Discretion Advised) 

 https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.468872126505727.108329.190986144294328&type=3

It is a really sensitive subject to talk about. Many people didn't stay quite! They protested. They protested for about three days, with their loved ones beside them. The protesters included: women, men and children. They kept more than 86 coffins carrying the victims’ bodies there and said they wouldn't bury them until the army takes control of the Provincial capital and also the governor rule is imposed in the restive province. Children from 10 to old men and women, they all sat there despite the freezing cold weather, the rain, in the dust, only hoping for justice!

PEACE NOT PIECES!