Results Day?

RIP TO ME!!!

Well, first of all I want to make it clear that on the results day I will be the one shitting my pants! I mean come one, think about it. I wait for about an hour outside my school for the results, then I wait in the line praying (as if it helps) that I haven't failed and at last when I get my results, goose bumps starts to appear all over my body. Sweaty hands. Dry throat. Shaking. Hair standing behind my neck! At that moment, when my teacher hands me my results, I just make a poker face -_- because I don't want to show how freaking fearful I'm at that moment.

I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm kind of smart, well that's what I think... but I'm really afraid of my Maths result! I hate MATHS! Even if I tried my hardest, I always fail. The first time when I did my Maths GCSE exam, I got a C. Yes, a freaking majestic C! Many people say "Oh, at least you passed!" And I'm standing there like "C shows that I'm a looser because I neither passed nor failed!" Let me explain what getting a "C" means in GCSE. Basically it means that you have passed the exam with a Lowest Mark... Let's say, you need to get 60 marks to pass the exam, and you got 61 marks! How would you feel?

My situation...though I'm a female.

I have already gotten some of my results because I did early GCSEs such as I have got my Religious, Science and ICT (or IT) and Oh yeah, I have got a C in science. Don't laugh please :'( It's just that I had a second chance to do my Science exam and probably get higher grade. Probably. I didn't do it. I thought about it a lot! Many days, I sat in my room thinking "Should I give it a chance?" "What if I fail?" Many questions came rushing in my mind, at the end I decided I wouldn't take the risk. I didn't do it because I thought I "kind of" passed Science already so why should I waste my energy on it again!? It's not like I'm taking it in College or University.

If I tell people that I'm going to fail, they all laugh saying I'm a show off! I mean, just because I concentrate in my class doesn't make me a freaking SMART ASS! I don't get it, in class, whenever there is a test, I always get the highest, but when it comes to the actual exam, I get really low marks. What I hate the most is when I get two or three marks off from getting a B or an A! It really pisses me off. I mean think about it, you learning so much, and at the end you are actually one mark away from getting an A*. In my Religious GCSE Paper, I was two marks away from getting an A*. Yeah, FML (Fuc* My Life!)

Oh, how much I hate them!

Okay, so you know those people who say "Oh, I haven't learnt anything, I'm going to fail!" Well, FUC* THEM! I can't stress it enough about how much they make me angry! I mean, if you have started revising two months before the Exams and you have been revising since the first day you found out the date, then why be like that? They tell you that they haven't revised, or that they might have written a wrong answer, making you hope that maybe, just maybe this time you might get higher than them. No, they crush your dreams by getting an A* Well, thank you very much!

I'm just not in mood now. All I'm thinking is how I will open my results' envelop and see I have got Es and Fs in mostly all of my subjects. I try to stay positive, but think about it, I would be so ashamed of myself, I will probably dig a big hole right there and then, so I can bury myself alive! Oh no, I think my friends will get higher than me and I know, deep down they'll probably be really happy! I don't know. I think, it's time for me to make a Will and say what to give to my family after I die, which probably includes of £10 from my piggy bank, old clothes and yeah, my phone! Oh well, I think I better start writing it then because I don't want them to fight about it.

Bye for now xx take care. PEACE!

Can't sleep!

Story Of My Life!

I mean, okay I use Facebook, YouTube, Gmail etc at night. I try my best not to use them when I'm going to bed; but no! I have to use the laptop... I usually use Facebook, you know to stalk some of my friends. What? Don't tell me you don't do it! I know you do too ;) For about three days, I have been sick, I still am. I try my best to take the medication and all, but it seems like the odds are against me! Everyone says that when you're ill/sick you're supposed to rest, I think my brain doesn't coordinate with my body because trust me when I tell you, even if I try to get comfy in my bed, I still use my phone to go on different sites.

Humans, why are we so complicated? I mean, I know that if I didn't sleep or didn't take rest, my condition will get worse! But oh no, I got to see the new YouTube video by Smosh! Oh man, how I wish I could take break from using any type of electronics. When it comes to nights... hmm who am I kidding, it's 3:40 am in the morning and I'm freaking writing this Blog. I think, I would rather write for hours and hours than to go to bed on time.

Most people yawn when they see others yawing! Did you?

Another down side is that, since it's my holidays, I get to choose what time I can wake up or to sleep. Usually, I wake up at 4 PM in the afternoon... yeah, I have no life because I don't go out; socialize with other fellow human beings. I just eat my breakfast, roll over onto my bed, and plug in the laptop charger and BAM! I start Googling random things. I plug the charger from the beginning because obviously I'll be too lazy by the time my laptop warns me that only 7% of battery is remaining; though, sometimes when I don't remember plugging it in, and when the laptop shows that only 5% of the battery remaining, I suddenly become a Super Ninja! Trust me when I say this, I don't become just ordinary ninja like others become; I become a Super Saiyan Ninja! I unexpectedly have a flow of energy and in about 2 Seconds the charger is plugged in! 

Here watch an EPIC video!

Well, I leave you at this since I got no energy left in my fragile body. I think I had enough of internet for today, maybe just maybe tomorrow will be different? Nah. 

Take Care xx Sleep tight (if you are going to sleep, if not then... GO WORK!)

It's My Own Opinion!

Give Respect, Get Respect!

What's up? I'm kind of fed up about how people just shove their own opinions and their own so called "Beliefs" down other people's throats. Don't y'all have respect for others? Now, let me make it clear, many religious people (bear in mind I do believe in a religion) they try to make you feel as if you're a sinner and they are all washed with holy milk or something. I do follow a religion, but that doesn't mean I should tell others that they're going to hell because they have different opinions from me or they have different religion.

I have a friend, she once asked me about what I belief in or what not, I told her that yeah I do belief in God, But she told me since I'm a Muslim and not a Christian, I will go to Hell. I have also heard Muslims saying that others will go to hell if they don't become a Muslim. What the... I mean seriously? So, now people will decide who will go to hell/heaven. They will decide who will live happily on this Earth and who will suffer because they Belief in something else.

If you focus on Religion, it teaches you about positive things. Religions doesn't tell you to divide people in certain groups, it tells you to live in harmony and peace with fellow members.

I got no problem about what religion you believe in, whether you're an atheist, gay/lesbian, old, young. I got no problem. I will respect you no matter what. We live in 21st century and I accept everyone. Why should I judge you? Who am I to judge you!? If you're religious you should know that God have told us that we shall not judge others because He is the one who created us and He is the only judge.

These days, the media have a great influence on us. It looks like whatever comes up on the news; people believe it without thinking twice. They think that all the Muslims are terrorists! Hahahaha, it makes me laugh. So, you're telling me that about 1.6 Billion Muslims around the world are terrorists? While there are some extremists, who in the name of Islam brutally slaughter others without contemplating twice! It is such a shame that people judge Muslims only based on those 1% extremists.

Now, I'm not here to give you all a lecture about how some people have peas sized brains! I'm making my point clear by saying that just because one individual from a certain group does something wrong doesn't mean the whole wide group is responsible for it. Does it mean that the Christian man, who burns the Quran is the representative of the whole world wide Christians? No! I'm not going to curse every Christian because of him because he is an individual with his own opinions.

Help others not because they have the same religion or the same race as you. Help them because they're Human Beings like you and everyone else!

I don't know why people make your life miserable because you might be an atheist. I don't blame the atheist for not following a Religion because you know why? Now a day some Religious people interpret the message from God in a way where they think they are superior and who ever don’t listen to them is a culprit and deserves a punishment! I can go on and on and on... but I won't be able to finish it or the truth is that you'll probably get bored!

Quran 25:63:

The worshippers of the All-Merciful are they who tread gently upon the earth, and when the ignorant address them, they reply, "Peace!"

Bible:

 And a servant of the Lord must not quarrel but be gentle to all ... (2 Timothy 2:24).

♥-I Love You All, My Beautiful Fellow Earthlings! ♥ x PEACE

Hate wearing GLASSES!

I think I'm going BLIND!

Well, I think my eye sight was week since I was a child. I remember when I used to go to school, I couldn't see the board! I told my cousin to copy off the work for me as well because I couldn't see. She thought I made those rubbish excuse because I was too lazy to copy off the work, she didn't know that I was freaking going blind! I didn't have glasses till I was probably 16! Can you believe it? All this years, all I saw was blurred images of people and without knowing I need to get glasses!

Now, don't get me wrong. Some people look hot and really sophisticated with glasses, on the other hand, there is me, looking like a Geek or a Nerd! I mean, I know I'm good at studying but wearing this ugly glasses are just making me look like some sort of a Nerd character from the movies where everyone bullies me and calls me ugly! I didn't even know what frame to pick for my glasses. My dad picked it for me and as always I agreed to him. I always do. Well most of the time. So, here I'm wearing my thick glasses trying to type in this early bright morning.

My Glasses Are From Ted Baker

You know, I'm not the type of person who really cares about what they're wearing or what not, but sometimes I do care and when I do, I just want to break them. I can't break them because then I will be blind! I also hate contact lenses. I mean, think about it, what if it falls off and your hands and fingers are too dirty and you pick it up, and place it back in your eyes! EWWW! :S 

On other hand, although I hate wearing glasses, but I can't just can't -not wear them- They are like my eyes now, whenever I go out alone to meet few friends, I have to wear them because then I can't actually see the freaking bus and will miss it! I'm short sighted, which means I can't see things from far away. You know, once I stopped a bus that I didn't wanted to, but since I'm a looser I just hopped onto it because I was really ashamed that the bus has stopped because of me. I know, I'm pathetic! 

Sometimes, my eye balls start to get hurt, I have no idea why... for my eyes checks-up, and I only went twice. I guess that's not enough. The first time, the thickness of my prescribed glasses weren't that much of a deal. Since I went the second time, it got worse. They told me that my eye sight was weaker than before. This meant that I will have thicker lenses. Oh, and my left eye is weaker than my right one. 

At the end, I just hate 'em because I feel more self conscious wearing them. Oh well, everyone has their own opinion. 

Bye! Take Care x

HOWDY! "Hope- A Struggle"

What's up everyone? Well, lately I haven't posted anything on my Blog... the thing is that I was really sick and I still am! It's just one of those things, where you don't want to share your personal life with others, though on the other hand, I want to record my daily feeling or just my daily life. People often record their daily lives by writing a diary or something, but to me, I think that if someone from my family or friends saw it, I'm going to be doomed! It is because it has some of the secrets that I haven't told anybody.

I wish, I would look this cute when I'm freaking SICK!

Anyway, enough of me chatting crap! Lately, I have been feeling really sick. I got flu and cold and all those nasty stuff! YUCK!!! Whenever I catch cold or flu, it stays with me for about a month! Literally, I'm not even joking.  I don't know how I caught it though... My mum said because I ate something. I don't know. The weather has been Sh** lately. I am sitting in my room all day every day. What I love the most about being sick is that my mum pays more attention :D I love it! ♥ Well, it's not like she beats me everyday hahaha, it's just that now she spends more time with me. Oh, my brother and my mother, they're also ill! It seems like the virus has spread in all of us :'(

On the positive note though, there is a Movie coming out that I'm eagerly waiting for! It is based on true event. You can get more information about the event here: http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=9ac_1358285352

Never give up! (Got this from Google)

Many innocent people lost their lives. Those precious lives that has to saved, they are being wasted in many countries. Though, this particular movie is not just about the death of many loved ones, it is about Hope. The title of the movie is "Hope- A Struggle" The Film Promotes Education and Encourages the Youth to Move Forward in life, even if the Last Ray of Hope is Far Off.

I just can’t wait for it to release! Its release date is 7 August 15:00 in UTC+05. I'm really excited! It is because it is based on true events and also it is going to be the first movie that is going to be released in Hazara Community regarding the bomb blast.

Unforgettable day for thousands.  

Get more information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/159872680872523/

Trailer 1: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=172082949617333

Trailer 2: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=198238903668404

-“Our graveyards have no space left as they have been filled up so very frequently by these terrorist attacks that target our community,” said a Hazara Shia student at a protest in the federal capital.

-About 86 people lost their lives and more than 100 injured!

Here you can see pictures of the attack on Alamdar Road (Viewer Discretion Advised) 

 https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.468872126505727.108329.190986144294328&type=3

It is a really sensitive subject to talk about. Many people didn't stay quite! They protested. They protested for about three days, with their loved ones beside them. The protesters included: women, men and children. They kept more than 86 coffins carrying the victims’ bodies there and said they wouldn't bury them until the army takes control of the Provincial capital and also the governor rule is imposed in the restive province. Children from 10 to old men and women, they all sat there despite the freezing cold weather, the rain, in the dust, only hoping for justice!

PEACE NOT PIECES!

Another Story

Aqeel's Picture on the Left. On the Right, the University's Bus

Balochistan University bus attack: My best friend died the day he wanted to live his life! 

After spending all day preparing for a party at my university, I slept very late. I could hardly wait for the next morning, when my classmates and I would finally be performing in the plays we had prepared for. We had parodies lined up and even a fashion show.

The next morning was going to be fantastic, I thought. The fashion show was a party tradition of the computer science and computer engineering departments of the Balochistan University of Information Technology, Engineering and Management Sciences (BUITEMS).

This time, upon my insistence, my friend Aqeel agreed to walk the ramp. After a lot of practice, Aqeel could walk like a real model and was very excited. He had asked Noman, our classmate, to bring his camera and take pictures of him while he modelled, dressed to the nines.

I was overtaken by the thoughts of how terrific the next day would be and went to bed at 3:00 AM.

The next morning:

It was morning of June, 18, 2012. I remember my mother calling my name again and again as she asked me to wake up. I was getting late for the party, but I was so exhausted from last night that I kept falling asleep.

Suddenly, I felt as though the air in my room got sucked out and I heard a loud explosion. Every inch of my room shook. The glass windows vibrated from the impact. I was horrified by what had just happened and was unable to comprehend much in my half asleep state. My eyes met the clock on the wall; it was quarter to nine.

I ran down the staircase and saw my mother looking equally worried sitting in the living room. Upon my enquiry as to what had just happened, she told me she had no idea what it was. My father stood outside the house, looking for clues. He told me that it may have been a rocket attack explosion.

I went back to my room and tucked myself in bed, clueless about what the consequences of this explosive sound were.

Twenty minutes later, my brother came running to my room.

“Your university bus was attacked near the Federal Investigation Agency (FIA) office. There was a bomb blast. Do you know that?” he asked.

Suddenly, my brain went blank. It was as if I could not breathe. I couldn’t even imagine that something might have happened to my dear university friends.

I hurriedly changed my clothes and ran towards the blast location in a state of utter panic. The FIA office was on Samungli Road, at a 10-minute walk from my house.

I was breathless when I reached the site. In front of my eyes was the university bus I would have been in had I woken up earlier. It was completely destroyed in the bomb blast. A burnt bus stood there in tatters. There were no bodies as people had taken the injured and dead to the hospital. I went back home and left for the hospital immediately.

Upon reaching the hospital, I saw a very sad picture. People were mourning. Women were crying in disbelief. I started finding people who I knew were supposed to be on that bus.

Soon I came to know that my dear friend Aqeel, who was supposed to steal the show this morning on the ramp, was no more. A feeling of irreparable loss took over me. I felt like everything I had known was gone. I waited all day with my friends for the medics to return Aqeel’s body to his family.
When Aqeel’s body was finally revealed to us, Noman and I began to cry.

“Look, Aqeel, I brought the camera with me. Here it is! But why aren't you on the ramp?”

It hurt so much that I wished it was just a nightmare and I would wake up and get ready to meet my friends at the university. But this wasn't a dream and we all had to accept that.

This June, we had another department party and it went great, but the difference was that there was no Aqeel, excitedly waiting to walk the ramp, dressed like a star. Noman sat quietly in the crowd instead of hopping all around the stage taking photographs of his dear friend.
http://blogs.tribune.com.pk/story/17850/balochistan-university-bus-attack-my-best-friend-died-the-day-he-wanted-to-live-his-life/

 -I saw this Blog and I couldn't resist sharing it with others. Many lives are crushed everyday by the Power of those murderers! It's yet another Story of a Boy named Aqeel. Surely he will be missed by his family, friends and many more... I just hope that Young people like him are not wasted in this cruel world again. I just wish that no mother should have to hear such drastic news about her precious son...

It was a very repulsive incident and really outrageous! Those who were involved in this act cannot be named Human Beings!

Martyrs will always live in our heart no matter what!

PEACE NOT PIECES!

Brother from another Mother...

Dear Brother,

                   How are you? I hope you're having fun. Well, why wouldn't you, you're in a place where people dream about going after death. Heaven. We didn't talk much. I messaged you sister, I told her about how I can't believe all this happened. I still can't believe it. I told her how your soul will rest in peace. I wish you do and please don't worry too much about your weeping Mother; she just can't help it, can she? We all can't! We can't even stop thinking about you and all the other who has lost their lives. I just wish that you're smiling down at us from Paradise. I just hope you don't get unhappy because of the weeping of your loved ones for you.

Things aren't going great my brother. After you left us, things got worse. There was another two target killing. About 6 died. They were coming home from their work and some "unknown" people fired rains of bullets on them. They couldn't even make it to hospital... Though there is good news. A suicide bomber got killed! I think we're happy, not because someone killed a Taliban but because we were saved from another crises! 

The Taliban, there were two of them Brother. They were again going to blow themselves up on the same spot where they murdered you and many more! Don't they have heart? Well, I don't think so because they are all just brainwashed and they don't care about others. Both of those Taliban were near a shop, grocery shop. An old man, probably in his 50s saw them. At first, the man wasn't quite sure why two young men were about 16-18 years old were acting a bit odd. Those men were walking as if they were drunk. The poor old lad, he knew then that they are yet another bomber! 
Brother, you were also 16 years old. Seems like time has stopped now.

Fruit Sellers use this type of wheeled thing to sell their fruits/vegetables

The old man was a fruit seller himself. He used one of his weight stones that he uses to weigh fruits. The stone was 5kg. The old man threw it; his target was the bomber's head. The old man did knock out one of the bomber, though the other one flew the place very quickly! The people around the old fruit seller saw this. They then used gun to shoot the bomber's head yet again, they wanted to make sure he was dead. Alas! When those people pulled the bomber's clothes up, they saw the suicide jacket! On the other hand, the bomber also had a grenade. I don't know much about bombs or their types, all I know that we were their target again and we were saved! 

I don't know how many times we will be saved. I don't know whether we will make it up to Eid which is about 10-11 days from now. I don't know whether another place will be bombed. I don't know. All I know is that we are not save here in Quetta any more. I wish you were still being living happily with your family. I know I call you Brother; you're my brother from another mother. 

The day I found out about you, about how you were one of the martyrs from the suicide bomb, I couldn't believe it. I cried. I was in disbelieved, I went to Facebook, I looked at your profile. I saw you shared a link just about 30 minutes before the attack. I didn't want to accept it. I hope you're in a happy place now. You’re with angles, with your best friend who also died in that blast. I hope I join you there as well. I hope happiness of your family and friends as well. 

Till next time...

Peace x