What if I failed my exams?

Hahahaha! I won't be getting any "A*" at all... Fuc* my LIFE!

Well, since it's going to be results day soon, I thought why don't tell others about what I think I'll get in my results. I know, many people wouldn't care less about what I feel right now, well, it is okay! I think I should get some good grades. Though in maths, I think I will get really low marks. It is not because I didn't revise... well yeah, I might have watched Harry Potter movie rather than revising. Shhhhh... Yup I know, I should have revised. What could've I done? I know nothing about Maths. It's like a different language to me; I think it's the language for smart people! I wonder what I'll get in my English Literature. In my English Language paper I got a B... it sucks! I was actually targeted an A*! My best friend got an A, I kind of got jealous. What? Aren't I a Human Being? 

Well, on that same day, I have to go to my college and get Enrolled. It means, I will get my ID card and I will be 100% sure that I will be going to that exact college! I am kind of excited... naahh, who am I kidding, I'm shitting my pants! You see, I'm not a "social able" person, this means I will stand in the corner and sulk! I wonder how I will make friends... I hate myself for being shy! I mean, there is a shy person and then there is me, not talking at all! Once, a boy even thought I was a mute! Well, it's because I don't talk at all. Whenever the teacher used to call for register and when he/she said my name, I would whisper. Well, to others it was a whisper but to me that was my full-on volume!

That's me, on my results day! 

Getting back on the topic of Exams, I will have to wait outside the building of my school to get my results. This means that from the beginning to the point when I get my results, I will be freaking out like a crazy person! I think I did well in my exams, especially in French! Oh, I really like French because all I had to do was do great in my control assessments and worry less in the actual exam. Though, the Listening Paper was really hard. The audio tape was like Bonjour blah blah blah... and I'm sitting there thinking what has my mum cooked for dinner today? It better be Rice with BBQ chicken! Yummy, and there, the audio tape has already stopped and we have finished our Listening Paper. FML! 

I'm kind of okay with my History paper because I already had half a GCSE in which I got an A! YES! Heaven! But all I'm worrying about right now is that I should be able to get into College easily because even if in one of my Exam Result, I get a grade below a "C" then I'm doomed forever! This means that I will not be able to do the courses that I applied for and I might have to do Btec instead of A Levels which I have already applied for!

Well, I guess we'll see all of it on the results day. Wish me luck, hmm... it's kind of unnecessary because the exams are all over and all I got to do is wait and watch!

Take care! Peace x