My Childhood...
I was always the shy kid. I was
the one who wouldn't talk that much. Although I was shy, I remember having few
friends and always having fun with them. In school, we would sit around and
gossip even during the lessons! "Oh did you know she isn't friend with
______" "She is so weird!" We used to have a lot of fun. You
know, whenever you're young, you just want to grow up! Grow up because you
didn't want people to be the boss of you. Grow up because you thought having a
full-time job would make you happy. It seems like time doesn't wait for you.
Time. Time is so cruel, it takes away your childhood.
Always sitting next to my best friend in my all of my classes. Not
even paying attention. Looking around, fooling with other friends. I sure do
miss those days. I always used to sit next to my cousin in all of my classes.
Whenever a new year started, we would both sit next to each other. One time
when we were talking a lot, the teacher separated us both. We cried! Due to our
crying, the teacher had to put us both together again!
Looking back, I sometimes think that I wish there was a time
machine so I could re-live the moments that I miss the most. I wasn't actually
a bright student! I was one of those who would fail mostly the entire test, but
in the exams I would barely pass. Let's say the passing marks were 60 out of
100 and I would get 59! Though it all changed when I reached year 7! I don't
know what happened but I started to pay more attention in my classes.
I remember that whenever I failed my test, my teacher would beat
me with stick! It used to hurt a lot. My hand would get bruises. Black; blue; purple.
They would get so sore that whenever I touched it, it would sting like hell!
But now, I would do anything to go back; say Hi to my friends and say how much
I miss them... I have lost all contacts with them. It really sucks!
I just don't want to grow up! I mean, I know growing up means you
are more mature, you can take care of yourself.... but I don't want to. I’m always
thinking about going to University, then finding a job. Frightening. I
don't get it! Since I'm super duper shy, I think it would be much harder for me
to find new friends, let alone finding a job. Life is like a cycle. You grow
up, go to school; college, then university where the government pulls your
whole body into debt! Then you spend your whole life giving that money back. You
would be spending your nights and days earning money so that you won't end up
on the streets dying. Such a cruel place the Earth is. I know, I know, I should
be thankful to be having the privilege to get education, getting a job, having
a place to live. I'm so thankful, but it's in our nature to always question why
things can't be our way.
If things were in my hand, I would make sure that I spend more
time with friends than in school because at the end of the day, ten years from
now, when you look back, you won't laugh and smile because you got higher
grades, you would laugh at the moments you spent with your friends, those
lessons that you bunked with friends... the list goes on.
All I want to say is that even though you're growing up, you
should take a day off. You don't have to spend it with your friends or family
(but if you do that would be GREAT!) and go out somewhere. Give yourself a treat;
don't be too hard on yourself. Go on a picnic, spend time with nature. And
spend less time criticising yourself like I do! Love yourself. Take risks because
at the end, we always regret the things that we haven't done.
Peace and Take Care x
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