Stalking and Being Creepy!

Well, hello there! I hope others are going well. I was so busy these days... well more like I didn't know what to chat about. I looked around, thought to myself what others might find it interesting. After rummaging through my brain, I thought why not talk about personal experiences! I mean, what else could be this easy for me? I want to chat about me being shy and how I stalk some people on my Facebook, well... here it goes.

Firstly, I wanna chat about Stalking. I mean not stalking in general... I mean stalking someone Online. You know, I stalk a lot of people Online, but who doesn't? Well, starting from the guy(s) I have crush on, to those who annoy me the most! I just can't get enough of it. It seems like I'm becoming a freaking creeper! I refresh my Facebook homepage again and again and again... I click on my friends list. I scroll up and down. Looking for particular people. Now, don't get me wrong. I'm not obsessed with them! It's just that, sitting all day in one room does make me do stupid stuff.

 Secondly, I look at their pictures. I don't know about others but I like it a lot when I look at their pictures, see what they have been up to... (Oh no! Now I sound like some freaking top CRAZY STALKER!) But I'm not. You see, my life is way boring, I don't do anything. I sit in front of my computer; I entertain myself by criticising others! I know, I know, I have no life :'( I admit it. What else can I do? My family doesn't even know I have a Blog. Well, why would I tell them anyway?

When I was in school, many people used to say I'm creepy. I, myself, think that I am. I think it's because of the way I look at them. I just stare at them... for no reason. Well, most of the time because the boys were such eye candies! I used to check them out, but I would stare at them that long because I didn't like to creep them out! I wasn't the only one though. No. Many girls used to even flirt with them. I didn't. Or should I say I couldn't. I didn't have the guts. You see, I'm really shy, in class even if I knew the answer I wouldn't even raise my hand. I was smart though... there were these three or four guys who used to look at me. I sometimes had the feeling that someone is staring at me, when I looked up, one of them were I suppose admiring me?

I don't know. I guess sometimes I was joyful inside when someone would ask about me, especially boys. I remember once I was sitting in gym at my school. I was just sitting there by myself on this machine. I overheard a boy asking about me, he asked another boy who I was and my name I think. I didn't quite hear what the other boy's respond was, though I was smiling. I'm not the person who others like talking to; it's because I don't really respond to them, I mean when someone is having a conversation with me, and if I don't know them, I just quietly say yes or no and I don't actually give my opinions on things.

Later, the boy lost interest. Well, I guess who wouldn't? Even if I were to like someone and that someone didn't talk and was supper dupper shy, I wouldn't really give them my attention as well. I want a guy who will make me talk; I want him to tell me that I don't need to be afraid I guess. I think that I'm never going to find myself a boyfriend. Not because I can't, maybe because I'm afraid that soon enough he will get bored and say his goodbye and leave, like others.

Take care. Peace x