Wednesday, 17 July 2013

STRESS!


Stress... Many people suffer from stress; it's such a painful thing. I get stressed really easily, I cry a lot when I get stressed. I think the next level of stress is Depression. Oh how I hate depression and stress! I think that sometimes it's just too much. I wake up feeling stressed and depressed and just have no idea about it. It’s like an animal, eating me from the inside. Stress makes me feel as if I'm dead. 

I take my time because I don't want to lose my temper, but most of the time it's so hard! Sometimes I go to the bathroom and just cry. I cry so that I will feel more human and normal again. Many people think that it's nothing. They say "Oh, it's just a phase, you'll get over it" but no... I don't, I never do and I think I never will. I feel ashamed and curse myself because I get stressed really easily. I don't know, I just can't help it. My family say "Oh, now what's wrong?" As if it's all a play and I'm in a drama.

From the moment I wake up, I feel like I got nothing to do, I feel like I'm just a waste of space. I mean come on! I know everyone should be happy as we all deserve happiness no matter what! But... sometimes, you just lose it. You lose your patience, your temper, you lose yourself. I hate it.

I feel like I'm always under pressure! I feel like I got nothing else left in this world. I go on-line to check for help. I Google "STRESS" more than anything. I search for it because I want to know what the cure is. I see people have different stories. Well my story, it'll take me 2+ hours to write in detail about my story. I see people get bored easily. I see that they don't care. People are selfish. I know everyone is, it kind of hurt to see people not giving a SHI* about you. 



 
This is what statistics show about Stress: (UK, England)

·         There were 6,366 admissions for stress, a rise of 6.8% on the previous 12-month period.
·         Admissions were highest among those between the ages of 18 and 60.

It hasn't been better since I lost a friend of mine. We used to play together (if you want to know about that story please check out my Blog and the post Title: So Young)

Overall, I think that stress or any type of psychological illness is mostly the main reason people aren't happy with their lives. From the stress of not being good enough to being compared to others. Stress is caused by various factors and reasons.

One way that really helps me keep myself calm and not get easily stress is by watching Youtube videos. I know, I know, it might not help you but it always help me. Another thing that I love is by writing things down. Even now I'm writing what I'm feeling, things that concern you. Write it down, maybe on a piece of paper, write down what you hate and look at it again, it makes you feel as if you are stressing for no reason. 

When you actually see the inner feelings of yours, you'll feel much better! I love to draw as well, but most of the time I don't because if I'm not able to draw an object properly, I get stressed! Sometimes, I go to a park and sit there on a bench. Listening to my music, watching the ducks and it makes me think more positive. Looking at nature, it makes me feel that the world is a big place and why should I stress about little things and put myself in disadvantage.

I would love to hear what others do when they feel stressed 

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